Dear Diary:
I found this note Mommy was writing and I wanted you to see it. It is about Belly-Button.
"About Bella. We have been having such a hard week. Crying here and there. We know her time is near. I just bought a beautiful lavender baby blanket covered with butterflies on it for when we bring her to be put down. I have been looking for a lavender music box with butterflies that plays "Butterfly Kisses", but I am having a hard time finding it. I love this one, but the song is "Wind beneath my wings" I will keep her ashes in it. When we were on MySpace a lot, when Bella wrote to her fans, she always signed everything with "Butterfly Kisses, remember." Her favorite color is lavender as you know. Yesterday morning she slipped a couple of times, her legs are weak and she tapped her head while walking, on the cabinet. Keith said she ran into the furniture. I know as she gets worse, it will be time. We are feeling in our hearts, perhaps by months end. This is all I think about, my baby girl. I have been praying for God to let her pass in her sleep, so we won't have to put her to sleep. I just hold her and cuddle and let her know she is safe with Mom and Dad and how much we love her. Prayers.... "
It made me cry, I can't imagine not having my sissy with us. I know I need to be strong for Madeline and little baby, Lili.
Love,
Paris Noel
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